year and half ago, my offspring get in the art high school and needed a computer.
Because of the modern age studying in high schools in Finland is completely nuts,
one can’t get through studies without laptop.
To me that tells how sadly untalented teachers are and how school system is faulty.
But that wasn't what I was about to write.
Because of the modern age studying in high schools in Finland is completely nuts,
one can’t get through studies without laptop.
To me that tells how sadly untalented teachers are and how school system is faulty.
But that wasn't what I was about to write.
Since I gave my laptop to the offspring and tried to use tablet to my fill the daily internet dose,
I’ve been... annoyed.
Now I'm annoyed with blogger... it's messing with the text again, so... this will look wonky.
Darn, Now I lost my thought completely.
So... I must wonder, what this blog was supposed to be about. I have no memory, not so anything comes
to mind, that why I started to write this.
Darn Blogger and your wonkyness.
So. tablet... I realized that I'm oldschool, I need real computer... so I did try to "play" with wifes laptop,
that she uses for office thingies and.. Sims 3. but NOnoNo... I can't stand the Windows.. It's worst OS.
and because wife needs the windows.. so I could not install any flavor of Linux on it. SO I dig out old
computer from garage... and tried to play with that... but.. that either didn't work on my favor. so..
I continued to try to handle my web-page, facebook, art stuff, blogs.. all with tablet.. It was truly horrible.
So... dear offspring, who knew our money situation is not to good because of my long sickness thingie
(haven't been at work since early spring), and offspring therefore decided first not to tell us that my old
laptop didn't quite work enough for all the courses in school. Because, that damn Windows kept install
more and more useless stuff that with windows 10, you can't even remove without more skilled coding
than I'm capable.
After the offspring had failed one course, we kind of found out the laptop situation... It did take a while,
and I sure had to step far from my comfort zone to make it happen, I had to beg and use phone and do
research and talk to people and visit a church ones (it's weird for pagan like me)... but I managed to do
it.. I managed to make it so, that offspring has now darn fine laptop.
Ah.. Now I remember what I was about to write originally. It was about that, People think I'm quite selfish
and they are correct. I am most of time selfish but when it's about my family, I'm not so much.
Before this laptop incident.
About year and half ago, I made a Mural and as a thank you I got awesome, the best of the best phone
at the moment. Then... around the same time when I get the new laptop for offspring, we also
change phones. I have now... quite.. toy phone. Sure I miss my ex superphone.. but really.. offpsring
does have way much more use and need for it. .. and it's not the first time that I've given my favorite
"toys"
for offspring.
Don't get me wrong.. I'm selfish prick. there's no doubt about that. If I don't concentrate much, I forget
that there's people around me who might have more urgent needs than I have. It's quite common
with adhd/bipolar person, but I'm working on this... working hard. But sometimes the work ... does
pay up. I'm not riches man, but I sure want to make sure our offspring has better tools for life than I had.
About my selfishness It's true.. it's not so long ago, when my wife use to get me books (because she
knew I love em) and guess what I got her? Maybe tiny chocolate bar and ... tobacco. Because I
didn't even bother to really find out what she wanted or needed. And boy if I didn't get anything I was
annoyed.
I might buy my self a computer, phone, game console.. what ever I felt I wanted or needed... and did
I ever buy that sewing machine, or general purpose machine or anything that she needed? .. well.. no.
So.. I'm working on it. I'm working hard to keep my self in ... short lease... I demand a lot from me.
My therapist doesn't understand why I demand so much, I mean my current one, my regular therapist
have started to see the point... I hope I get my regular one back soon.
Anyhow... I have found my self done selfless acts lately, not much, but more than years and years before.
Sure, mostly for offspring and more an more to wife, but sometimes even to "just" friends or even almost
strangers.
I've lost my point of this story completely.. It's just.. rambling.. oh well.. it happens.
I’ve been... annoyed.
Now I'm annoyed with blogger... it's messing with the text again, so... this will look wonky.
Darn, Now I lost my thought completely.
So... I must wonder, what this blog was supposed to be about. I have no memory, not so anything comes
to mind, that why I started to write this.
Darn Blogger and your wonkyness.
So. tablet... I realized that I'm oldschool, I need real computer... so I did try to "play" with wifes laptop,
that she uses for office thingies and.. Sims 3. but NOnoNo... I can't stand the Windows.. It's worst OS.
and because wife needs the windows.. so I could not install any flavor of Linux on it. SO I dig out old
computer from garage... and tried to play with that... but.. that either didn't work on my favor. so..
I continued to try to handle my web-page, facebook, art stuff, blogs.. all with tablet.. It was truly horrible.
So... dear offspring, who knew our money situation is not to good because of my long sickness thingie
(haven't been at work since early spring), and offspring therefore decided first not to tell us that my old
laptop didn't quite work enough for all the courses in school. Because, that damn Windows kept install
more and more useless stuff that with windows 10, you can't even remove without more skilled coding
than I'm capable.
After the offspring had failed one course, we kind of found out the laptop situation... It did take a while,
and I sure had to step far from my comfort zone to make it happen, I had to beg and use phone and do
research and talk to people and visit a church ones (it's weird for pagan like me)... but I managed to do
it.. I managed to make it so, that offspring has now darn fine laptop.
Ah.. Now I remember what I was about to write originally. It was about that, People think I'm quite selfish
and they are correct. I am most of time selfish but when it's about my family, I'm not so much.
Before this laptop incident.
About year and half ago, I made a Mural and as a thank you I got awesome, the best of the best phone
at the moment. Then... around the same time when I get the new laptop for offspring, we also
change phones. I have now... quite.. toy phone. Sure I miss my ex superphone.. but really.. offpsring
does have way much more use and need for it. .. and it's not the first time that I've given my favorite
"toys"
for offspring.
Don't get me wrong.. I'm selfish prick. there's no doubt about that. If I don't concentrate much, I forget
that there's people around me who might have more urgent needs than I have. It's quite common
with adhd/bipolar person, but I'm working on this... working hard. But sometimes the work ... does
pay up. I'm not riches man, but I sure want to make sure our offspring has better tools for life than I had.
About my selfishness It's true.. it's not so long ago, when my wife use to get me books (because she
knew I love em) and guess what I got her? Maybe tiny chocolate bar and ... tobacco. Because I
didn't even bother to really find out what she wanted or needed. And boy if I didn't get anything I was
annoyed.
I might buy my self a computer, phone, game console.. what ever I felt I wanted or needed... and did
I ever buy that sewing machine, or general purpose machine or anything that she needed? .. well.. no.
So.. I'm working on it. I'm working hard to keep my self in ... short lease... I demand a lot from me.
My therapist doesn't understand why I demand so much, I mean my current one, my regular therapist
have started to see the point... I hope I get my regular one back soon.
Anyhow... I have found my self done selfless acts lately, not much, but more than years and years before.
Sure, mostly for offspring and more an more to wife, but sometimes even to "just" friends or even almost
strangers.
I've lost my point of this story completely.. It's just.. rambling.. oh well.. it happens.
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